New Beginnings

Well some may know that today our local Sam's opened. I was very glad to have this morning off at Walmart. I talked to Doug, a co worker at Walmart, and he felt that it was going to be very busy cause people would go to Sam's yes to see what they have but feel that it may be too expensive or decide that they don't need that item in bulk and come back to Walmart. I felt it was going to be slow at Walmart, I'll find out tomorrow when I go in, I'll ask Kris or Amanda. I did get my time change at Walmart approved. starting November 1st. I start working evenings. I think it will be a good change. It's too hard to try to work 11pm to 7am at Mosaic and then early boring mornings at Walmart. I figured this way I can work Walmart, and use Mosaic to kinda relax and settle down and then drive home for some rest after a very long night.
Speaking of Mosaic, it's going very well. I really enjoy working the over night shift. I love having Lori as my supervisor and I work with an elderly woman every night named Connie and she's very nice and funny. We seem to get alone great. It's very easy work, sometimes it's just hard to try to stay awake when you have nothing to do. I'm glad there's a TV and computer to help past the time.
We also had out Annual Boo at the Zoo on October 18th. Our them was Disaster at Sea. Pirate inspired. We went through 29 large bags of Tootsie Rolls! It was a lot of fun, but it was also very cold. Yesterday morning while driving home I had to drive in my first snow storm on the season. Oh how I haven't missed those. Of course none of the snow stayed, it melted as soon at it landed but it's supposed to be fairly warm this weekend. Great time to thaw out before the frost comes.
Some of you may remember me speaking of a man named Scott. He works at Subway as a store manager. He's super sweet. Well we've been hanging out a lot lately and we've decided to try dating. I've known him from high school days. He went to Garden and I went to Scott. I actually meet him at a debate tournament and we were against each other. It was a case of WMD's. My case was flawless. It was that the bull dozers in South America were killing the rain forests that the animals and natives live in. The bull dozer was the WMD. Tree, plants, animals, and people needed them for food and survival. It was an awesome case. Well in the end I my partner and I won the round and we spent the rest of the tournament talking and getting to know each other. We've been friends ever since, not super close though. Well when I moved back I went to eat at a Subway just down the street from the offices and I was like dude I know you. We hit it back off, and caught up and been best friends ever since. He's a great guy. He's got two roommates, Jamie and John. John recently got back from Iraq and is slowing returning to his life as an Army Reserve civilian. He seems to be readjusting well. He's kinda shy though, so is Jamie. I'm sure a few more visits from me and that'll change. No need to be shy around me, after all I do bath people for a living. I know it's not always the same but I'm not very modest so it doesn't bother me. We're going out Monday night. We were going to go bowling tonight but due to the crazy weather changes people have been calling in sick, so he had to work. No worries, I remember being a manager and never having free time and what very little time I got was used for sleeping or catching up on paper work. I don't know what he's got planned but whatever is fine.
I talked with mom and I only own like 600 left on my car so I'm gonna use the next two months to pay it off and hopefully a new car will be my Christmas present to myself! Hopefully my car will last that long, I think that either the fuel filter or fuel pump is going out. It's completely full of gas right now but acts like it's got nothing in it. I hooked the OBD-II up to it and there wasn't any system codes reported so I don't know was else it could be if it's not those. I'm gonna replace the filter first, less expensive and then see what else happens. I don't want to put too much money into especially if I'm just gonna trade it in. My car is actually sitting at Scott's right now. I've been using one of my mother's vans, he drove me home to get it the other night.
On a rather sad note. I'm sorry to say that my Great Aunt Mary Alice died. She was 92. This was my grandmother's oldest and last living sister. She took it very bad! With her mental state it was hard to watch as well. I hate to say it but I don't think my grandmother is going to live too much longer. She only weighs about 89 pounds and hardly eats. She can't remember anyone or anything. I pray she lives for many more years, but it to me it would be worse not knowing even your own age or name, which is what is currently happening. Someone asked her how old she was at the funeral as she rattled off her birthday but didn't know how old she was.
Also another sad note. My Great Uncle Guy is very ill. They gave him less then one month to live. He's down to 60 pounds and won't eat anything. I pray that The Lord will end all those who are suffering and take them to safer places.

Here's My Songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FupshBnL5OY Zac Brown Band - Chicken Fried
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X75mry1LcFg Katy Perry - Hot N Cold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X75mry1LcFg Pink - So What

It's Back!

I got some bad news on Wednesday. My doctor called me and told me that I had abnormal results in my toxic screen for HPV. This is a virus that I thought I thought I got rid of when I was 13. It attacks the kidneys, ovaries, and is the leading cause of cervical cancer. Recently I've been really cold, and tired and this is probably why. I have to have surgery on November 3rd. and they're going to remove a sample of my cervix and test it for cancerous cells. If it comes back positive then they may have to take my cervix out completely. They had wanted to do that when I was 13 but I mom said no. There's a lot of pain, but the only thing I can take is Advil or Aleve.
Work is going really well at Mosaic. I started working the 11pm to 7am shift. I like it, not as physically hard. I have to talk to Walmart, cause I may need to leave for a while, but I want to be able to come back. With my pain it's hard to bend and such, maybe I could move to working in a less physically demanding position like a clothing stoker or greeter for a while, but idk.

Here's my songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jzSh_MLNcY Kanye West - Stronger
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-w0-agVE8g Toni Braxton - He Wasn't Man Enough for Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ocif0HitnOQ&feature=user Omarion - Ice Box

Trip!

As many of you know this last weekend I got to go on a mini vacation! I was so super excited. I left after work on Thursday night, I stopped in Cimmaron to see Eric and drop off his sunglasses that he had left in my car. He doing very well, and he told me that he was going to see a friend in Ashland and have a guys night in of drinking and such. Sounded like fun, and after talking with him afterwards he agreed it was. I left his place around 11:30. I only stopped once more after that, in Pratt. I was kinda tired and I had told mom and Josh that if I got too tired I was going to pull over here in Pratt and rest a while. I stopped at a local gas station and saw that they had those 5 hour energy shots that I'd seen on TV. I've always wondered if they actually work so, never believing they would of course. So I got the Extra Strength one, and a cappuccino. I got out to my car and decided to try the shot first. I chugged it. It wasn't the tastiest thing but nonetheless not the worse I've ever tried. Then I chugged about half of my cappuccino. I started to drive out of town and about two miles down the road something kicked in and OMG y'all I was so hyper/ energized it was amazing. I'm not sure if it was the shot or the shot and cappuccino or what but if they or that combo works that well I'm gonna buy a years supply. I got to Wichita at about 2:15 am, Friday morning. I was surprised to find that when I had called Joshua that he was still awake. I went to see him at his folks house and was still hyper. I finally told Joshua at about 4:30 that I had to lay down, I wasn't tired but I knew that a crash was going to happen and I wanted to be prepare for it. I doubt that I was laying there for more then about 10 minutes cause the next thing I knew Joshua was asking me to get breakfast at about 7 am. After breakfast I dropped Joshua off and went over to see Jesse, and Henry the dog. I wasn't hungry but he was so I went with him to Spangles so he could eat brunch. He had class at 11 so I went ahead to my hotel. It was still early but I figured it wouldn't hurt to ask to see if I could check in early, and I did. They told me the room I had reserved wasn't open but they had another room, smaller but good enough for one person. I said sure. They gave me a small discount for the inconvenience and they room cost me a lot less too. I was very pleased to hear that. I stayed in room 137 at Motel 6.
I took a nap for about two hours and then got up to get ready for my date with Rion. Y'all I gotta say that he has the most amazing blue eyes that I've ever seen!!! I know it probably sounds cheesy but I'd need a map or I'd get lost in them. We went to Carlos O'Kellys for dinner and then to Towne West to see a movie. We watched Dark Knight: Batman. I'd seen it before, but he hadn't. That damn movie room was so damn cold!! I was shivering the whole movie, and I think I had a broken seat cause I kept slipping down out of it. and for the record I didn't fall asleep during the show! He thinks I did but I didn't. We were gonna drive around for a bit afterwards but my friend Jason had called and said he was on the way to get me so he just took me back to my room. Jason picked me up about 10:30 and took me to Club Rodeo. He'd never been there and I love seeing drink men in wranglers getting on a bull for 8 seconds. I danced a few line dances and I even talked Jason into doing the Cotton Eye Joe just before we left. For the first time a city white boy dancing it wasn't too bad. He just needs more practice. lol! After we left about 1:00 am we went to eat breakfast and then he dropped me off back at my room. I called Joshua the next morning about 8am so that he could come get his $50 from me. Jason had given it to me the night before, for his ticket to the show that night. He came and got it and invited me to breakfast and lunch with his family and I said no cause it was a family affair and that I would be uncomfortable. I told Rion that I wouldn't go to his either, he asked the night before. About 11 I called Susan and went to El Dorado to visit with her. I do feel for her. Her children are putting her through hell, and they don't even care. She's such a strong woman and I hope that she can find a way to deal with everything. Thoughts and Prays are with her and her family. I ended up driving her daughter, Sarah, to the zoo so that she wasn't there to be bothering her mom.
I got back about 1:30 and got lunch and then went back to my room to take another nap and got up about 3:30 pm to get ready for the show. Jason got there at 4:30 and since I was still fixing my hair he called Joshua to see what time to pick him up. He said 5:30 pm. Jason and I went to the mall really quick to get him a new shirt, and left to get Joshua. I still don't know what exactly happened, but Joshua texted me and said never mind that he would meet us there. It pissed me off, one we had already made the plans for the three of us to eat together and go to the show. I really wanted to have dinner together so that Jason and Joshua could get to know each other before the show. Would make the show a little less awkward, two strangers sitting together for 3 hours, ya know. The show was excellent! I love Jeff Dunham and all his characters. The opening act, Brian Haner, Guitar Guy, was so funny. I got Brian's CD, a Walter "Shut the Hell Up" shirt, and an Achmed " I kill you" dog tag. Jason drove me home, and I went to sleep. The next morning, Sunday. I went to church and then tried to call Joshua to see when we would go to the Zoo. Since I didn't hear from him I ended up going with Jesse, Amanda his girlfriend, and Jenny her friend. Y'all I have to say that my legs were killing me by the time I finished walking that whole place. I don't think it would have been so bad but I had flip flops on instead of tennis shoes. I got a hat and a shirt from the zoo. I asked Rion and Joshua to meet me for dinner somewhere that night so we could talk about some issues. We meet at Spangles and talked a little outside before eatting inside. I still feel that there is something that isn't being said. They both know that I'm the type of person that if I'm mad at you I'm gonna say I'm mad at you. If I think you're being a stupid dumb ass I'll tell you to your face. I don't hide anything, and I think there's something left that needs to be said that isn't getting out. But idk, I guess I'll wait and see. That night Joshua, Rion and I went to Cy's and played a few games of pool. Rion and I had a beer. I think Rion was cheating, knocking balls in when I wasn't looking. Joshua needs lots of practice. I went back to my room that night and watched TV and packed most of my bags so that all I had to do was put my shampoo and pjs in there and zip and load them in the morning. I slept in until about 9:30. I tried to fix my hair, which idk I tried cause when I opened my door it looked like a waterfall as over my room door. I loaded my car and went to Andover to eat lunch with Susan and then went to El Dorado. I got to see my niece, and nephews. Y'all Daniel is so damn cute!! I also got Lucy, she's a Welsh Corgi. She's so pretty and I brought her home with me. I had dinner again with Rion and Joshua before I left, we went to Jason's Deli. I only stopped a few times on the way back home, so that Lucy could run a little and go potty. I stopped to say hello to Eric once more too, and then left for home. I got back about 11 pm and went straight to bed. I unpacked the car the next day.
It was a great trip and I can't wait to get down there again. I'm saddened that I didn't get to see Jeff or Robert or Nadine or Steve, but maybe next trip.
I gotta thank, Josh, Rion, and especially Jason and Jesse for making it such wonderful trip!

Here's my songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flAvh1o-s5E&feature=related Mat Nathanson - Come On Get Higher
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGf0ByBPfuI Colbie Caillat - The Little Things
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzyys6kW8yg Jordin Sparks - One Step at a Time

Long over due! Mixed Emotions!

I know I haven't written in a long time and for that I'm truly sorry. So here goes and sorry if this is incredibly long, but things need said and to those that read this, some people know whats going on and to others you might be surprised as to the mysteries that unfold in my life.

I have recently meet a very sweet, wonderful and caring man. His name is Eric, and he's from Michigan. He has moved into the area, about an hour and a half from me, he's a special education teacher, teaching in Ingalls. He's very devoted to his job, as any honest good hard- working person should be. We started seeing each other, but I knew and he had made very clear, that he wasn't looking for a serious relationship. Since I was, and still am I choose not to see him as anything more then friends. I deeply hope that he can be comfortable just being friends, and I'm sure that he will find someone that will treat him respectful and give him all the love and attention that he so desires. Many of you know that I have wrote a blog posted "Prince Charming". In that I had stated that I was only interested in dating white gentlemen. I also stated that I wasn't a racist, it's just what I prefer, and that I don't have any problem with other people having inter-racial relationships I just don't have them. And I also stated that I had "mixed" cousins and a niece and a nephew that are I love them just the same. I was informed my Eric that one of his gal pals from up north had read my blog posting and was very much offended by that comment, and I told him that I wasn't racist and I was truly sorry that I had offend her. I even offered to let him give my email and numbers to her and she may talk to me so that she could better understand why I had posted it and that it was said with honest intentions. This friend gave him the choice of either being friends with me or her. He choose her, he's had longer history with her and I respect his decision. What I don't respect is that anyone that forces another friend to pick one over the other. This ,to me, isn't a true friend! I know that I wouldn't and have never had to choose and I've never put someone in that position where they had to choose, in those cases I feel know one really wins, someone will and always gets hurt. In this case, I got hurt. Eric told me that I could still call and text him, like being a private friend. I don't think this is fair. I don't know why anyone would want to be secret friends, it's like we're trying to hide something and I strongly dislike this feeling. I even put a note on the top of that certain blog that said some people may not like what I pick but this is me, but I guess that never matters. I always say that I live my life with no regrets and I still don't, but I do feel saddened for cause so much drama to come over Eric, his friend, and I. I really put him into a difficult position and I'm truly sorry for that! I did go over and make him Spaghetti with meatballs, garlic bread, and cheesecake. I truly hope that he enjoyed it. I know he liked the cheesecake! I haven't talked to him much after that night, but he was my cherry lifesaver on Saturday. Woke up very early to let me drive over and use his shower since I had been working all night, I had to work my morning job at Walmart and then a 16 hour split at Mosaic, and I had to be back at 9 at Walmart again. I desperately needed a shower and he let me use his. I hope that he was able to go back to sleep once I left. I do feel bad that I caused him to go without sleep but I'm so truly thankful that he is so nice and sweet and he let me in. I don't know when I'll be able to see him again, probably not until after I get back from my trip, but then again we have texting, I don't call him much. Since he's a teacher he does work at home and I always am afraid I'm gonna messed him up or bother him if he's trying to focus. In total once I woke up at 6:45 Friday morning I was up until Sunday when I got home to sleep at 8am, and I had to be back at Mosaic at 3 pm. Needless to say I was extremely tired, but I got home last night at 12 and went straight to bed. I only have to work Walmart and I have an activities meeting at Mosaic, but that's it. I'm gonna go out and hang with Scott tonight. He offered to buy me dinner and go see a movie. It will be nice to sit down and kick it with a friend. I think he said that he needed help with putting out his Halloween decorations and anyone that knows me knows that I'm a huge holiday decorator. I love putting decorations out and making a house feel like a home. I thought about going to school for designing but I just have a passion to do it myself. I love being a health care worker and hopefully will continue in this field for a long time to come. That reminds me that I have decorations in boxes in the shed and I need to put up my own Halloween decorations at home. Plus tonight, Scott has this incredible massage chair. I told him if he ever comes home and it's gone it so wasn't me! lol! It's got the leg recliner where you're leg go into it and it massages you're calves and everything! So nice!!

Work is going OK. We are getting new schedules and I so don't like them at all. I'm gonna have to go to working overnights. But I'm going to go to working under Lori at either Pawnee or Henderson, or both. I really like Lori, unlike Liz and Angela. When Lori calls and needs something done it's "I know you're really busy but can you do this for me?" Liz and Angela it's "Go do this now!" It drives me crazy. We had a lady that needed a ride to church and they called, I was in the middle of cooking for two people and said they didn't even care. I'm sorry but someone eating to me is more important then going to church. Everyone that knows me knows just how religious I am but, if it was that important why couldn't they drive her over there themselves or call someone else. They always tell me they don't have staff that can do it, but we have staff all over this agency and I know there's other people with less work that could go and do it. I've been a DSM before and I know that sometimes it's jut easier to go do it myself them to call around and see who's available. But I do also know that DSM's jobs are very difficult and there are days when you feel you never get a break and you'd rather have someone else do it for you so you can try to have a moments rest. But I think it's important that they don't forget that with DSA's, which is what I, the company wouldn't work and that they should treat us better or they won't get special requests done. I was so mad at Liz yesterday. She called me to go do 6 - Plex and C- Street meds and cooking. I reluctantly said yes, but when I got over there the staff was already working. I called her back and was like what's going on they shave staff and she told me she wasn't answering her phone so that meant she wasn't at work. I'm sorry but just because I don't answer my phone doesn't mean that I'm not doing something, it to me, means that I am doing something and maybe didn't have time to pick it up at that second. We're not even supposed to have cell phones at work anyway, but when the DSM's need us they call our cell phones, strange huh?! Michael, I feel, no longer works for the agency. There's a lot of rumors going around about the reasons for his absence,and I don't know if any are true and it would be wrong to post them especially if they are false, it would ruin his credibility. He's such a nice man I would hate to think he's gone, but I hope that all is well and that everything works out for the best! My thoughts and prayers are with him.

I'm still making plans for my trip to Wichita! Should be a blast! Wait it's going to be a blast! I got my room booked for 5 nights at Motel 6! JEFF DUNHAM!!! Y'all I found the coolest photo of Walter for my desktop background. It's him with his arms crossed and below him it says Walter: He'll kick you're ass! lol!

Lastly, my Aunt Sharon and Uncle Gary are getting a divorce after 27 years of marriage. My Uncle Gary severely messed up and lost a great woman. My aunt is my mothers' sister. All I'm going to say on here to protect her is that he had bought a house in Olmitz and was having an affair. Sharon contacted a lawyer and got her a house for rent. Gary came home last night to a very,very,very empty house! They have three kids, my cousins. Darren, Debbie, and Dianna. Each knows the entire story and each are siding with their mother! I hope all works out well for her and that the judgement is handled in a timely and orderly fashion. My thoughts and prayers are with my Aunt and my three Cousins. I love you all and wish you all the best!

Here's my songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wJ1phmlq8BEoutube.com/watch?v=wJ1phmlq8BE Theory Of A Deadman - Bad Girlfriend
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4fykZ3PymMo KT Tunstall - Big Black Hourse And A Cherry Tree
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvKgnkIN8C8 Brad Paisley - Waitin' On A Woman

More Favorite Things!

The Bucket List

Hit forward and place an X by all the things you've done and remove the X from the ones you have not, and send it to your friends (including me).

This is for your entire life!

(X) Gone on a blind date

(X) Skipped school

(X) Watched someone die

(X) Been to Canada

(X) Been to Mexico

(X) Been to Florida

(X) Been on a plane

(X) Been lost

(X) Been on the opposite side of the country

(X)Gone to Washington, DC

(X) Swam in the ocean

(X) Cried yourself to sleep

(X) Played cops and robber

(X) Recently colored with crayons

(X) Sang Karaoke

(X) Paid for a meal with coins only

(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't

(X) Made prank phone calls

(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose

(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue

(X) Danced in the rain

(X) Written a letter to Santa Claus

(X) Been kissed under the mistletoe

(X) Watched the sunrise with someone

(X) Blown bubbles

(X) Gone ice-skating

(X) Been skinny dipping outdoors

(X) Gone to the movies








1. Any nickname? Sammie, Samantha, Yeah you bitch! lol jk
2. Mother's name? Susan
3. Favorite drink? Coke, no ice, slightly chilled but not too cold, Sonic Cranberry Slushes, Starbucks White Chocolate Espresso with an extra shot and lots of whipped cream on top!
5. Body Piercings? Ears, lip, tongue. I'm gonna get my belly button, and maybe something else done later

6. How much do you love your job? I have two jobs and I love both of them, yes!
7. Birthplace? Great Bend, KS

8. Favorite vacation spot? Wichita Ks! lol!
9. Ever been to Africa? Nope, but I'd love to go to Egypt
10. Ever eaten just cookies for dinner? Oh hell yeah!
11. Ever been on TV? Yeah, during high school and college sporting events, and for some of my jobs in the past.
12. Ever steal any traffic signs? No officer! lol Actually yes I have, but I had help. Y'all know who you are!
13. Ever been in a car accident? Yes! But both weren't my fault! Thanks God for insurance!
14. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? I have a 4 door Mercury Sable
15. Can you drive a standard car? Yes I can! I wish I had one now, I'm hoping my next car will be one.
16. Favorite pie? PUMPKIN!!!! or My homemade cheesecake!
17. Favorite number? 8 and 33
18. Favorite movie? 8mm with Nicolas Cage. Blood, sex, and suspense! What could be better!
19. Favorite holiday? Gotta be Christmas! I love the idea that so many people forget about the petty differences and the holiday cheer is just so great! I wish more people acted all year around like they act at Christmas. Plus I love spoiling people and I'm very much a giver so I tend to give much more. I'm not so much concerned with receiving but I love giving! Tis better to give then receive anyway!
20. Favorite dessert? Mommas homemade crescent rolls, pumpkin pie, my cheesecake, macadanian white chocolate cookies, chocolate chip cookies, oatmeal cookies, white or yellow cake, better then sex cake, lol ok I'm gonna stop I just gained twenty pounds writing this list! lol! 21. Favorite food? Anything momma or daddy make, Mexican, Italian, anything spicy or with a kick, Chinese, American, idk I'm really not too picky about what I eat
22. Favorite day of the week? Umm, probably Tuesday, I normally have off from both my jobs so it works out better for me. Sucks that it's at the middle of the week but oh well, it's still a day off
23. Favorite brand of body wash? Bath and Body works Apple or Caress or Dove
24. Favorite toothpaste? Colgate Total spearmint, I don't use anything but spearmint
25. Favorite smell? Apple Cinnamon! Momma baking goodies, Rain!!
26. How do you relax? Talk with friends and family, read a good book, listening to my favorite musics, watch one of my favorite movies over and over even though I know every word. Walking in the rain, or sitting outside listening to wind blow gently through the trees with nature as my music to my life, or climbing up on the roof and watching the stars pass over head.
27. How do you see yourself in 10 years? 10 YEARS!!! (Good band) Well I'll be 32, hopefully having my CMA, CNA, and RN completed. Working for a great home health company as a Medical coordinator or in a hospital in either the birthing unit or on extended stay patients. I wouldn't want to work in ICU, or Emergency too busy and too sad. True I'd probably be sad in birthing too, but I'd rather cry to have a life brought into the world, then taken out of it. Hopefully married to a wonderful man, with children, and living in a nice home that I can call my own. I don't know exactly where I'll be living at, but I know that I'll be happy!


Note: Why is ther no number 4? Hopefully I'm not the first the realize this, If I am that's sad, I'm normally the last.



Here's My Songs:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8khHqMntkbQ Carrie Underwood- Just A Dream
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WK-H76JeFpA Maroon 5 Ft. Rihanna - If I never See Your Face Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KzwAXlWkk3Y O.A.R. - Shattered

These are a few of my favorite things!

Animals:
Horses, dogs (Siberian husky), cats, mountain lions, fish, birds

Color:
Yellow

Sports teams:
NCAA - Kansas Jayhawks (all sports)
NFL - New England Patriots
NBA - Seattle Supersonics, but they've moved to Oklahoma City
NHL- Wichita Thunder
MLB - Los Angeles Angels
Tennis - Andy Roddick, Venus Williams
NASCAR - Bobby Labonte
USA Olympics! (Go Phelps!!)

Pastimes:
Poetry, music, sports, spending time with family and friends, reading, driving around, going for long walks, watching a movie(s).

Food and Drinks:
Nothing beats mommas cooking but I do like Burger King, Old Chicago, IHOP, Sonic Cranberry Slushes, Coke, Starbucks White Chocolate Espresso (thanks Joshua), Green Tea


Books:
I love murder mysteries. But I must admit that I do tend to like some of the sappy romantic chick books too. Stephen King, James Patterson, Robin Cook, Ben Mikaelson, John Grishsom. Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas, Petey, Touching Spirit Bear, It, Chromosome X, Slaughterhouse Five

Movies:
There's a lot of movies that I love. I tend to like thrillers, horror, and scary movies the most, but I do enjoy the comedies too. Not a big fan of the sappy girly movies, but I will watch them sometimes. 8mm is by far my favorite of all time. Pirates of the Caribbean (all), From Hell, Ghost Ship, Final Destination (all), Secret Window, Edward Scissorhands, National Treasure 9 all), Goticka, House on Haunted Hill, Saw (all), Hell Raiser (all), Halloween (all), 40 year old Virgin, Matrix (all), Superbad. Stand -up comedians, Larry the Cable Guy, Ron White, Bill Engival, Jeff Foxworthy, Jeff Dunham, Rodney Carrington, John Petiton, All the Blue Collar. And I have a soft spot for the kiddie movies, Happy Feet, Sponge Bob Squarepants, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas, Rose Red, A Walk To Remember, The Notebook, Harry Potter (all), A Simple Twist of Faith, etc.

TV Shows:
I guess I tend to like some of the more nerdy shows. CSI, CSI: Miami, CSI: New York, Without a Trace, Law and Order, Law and Order: Criminal Intent, Law and Order: Special Victims Unit, and Jeopardy. But I do like others as well. Simpsons, Futurama, Family Guy, Friends, Will and Grace, American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, Dancing With the Stars, Ghost Hunters, Paranormal State, House, Mindfreak, Colbert Report, The Daily Show, Comics Unleashed, Sex and the City, That 70's Show. And I love games shows too. Wheel of Fortune, 1 v. 100, Jeopardy, Family Feud, Crosswords, Price is Right, Weakest Link, Are You Smarter Then a Fifth Grader, etc.

Music:
I love rock music but I used to sing so I also enjoy country. I really do love all kinds of music. Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, Korn, Seether, Linkin Park, Godsmack, Simple Plan, Eve 6, Jason Michael Carroll, Cole Deggs and The Lonesome, Bucky Covington, Garth Brooks, George Strait, Matrina McBride, Keith Urban, Nickleback, Chevelle, Sugarland, Evanescence, Pink, Leann Rimes, Josh Turner, Hinder, Hal Ketchum, Crossfade, Clay, Walker, The Wallflowers, Papa Roach, Eminem, Destiny's Child, Faith Hill, Aaliyah, Beyonce, Blake Shelton, Brad Paisley, Carrie Underwood, Kelly Clarkson, Daughtry, Disturbed, Fall Out Boy, Green Day, Maroon 5, Rascal Flatts, Tim McGraw, etc.

Quotes:
Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends, and integrity. And you're keeping all of them in air. But one day you finally come to understand that the work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. The other four balls - family, health, friends, integrity- are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls, you will have the beginnings of balance in your life. - "Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas"

If you turn a gift away from its doors it always goes to the one who takes it in. - "A Simple Twist of Faith"




Here's my songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EpU78IeTx_c Metro Station - Shake It

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jUZs0J2o18 Chucks Wicks - All I Ever Wanted

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6zdhHLvT7k&feature=related Rihanna - Disturbia

When It Rains...

Well a lot of thing have happened lately. I've talked with my mom more about my trip and it's for sure happening, She's helping me with the arrangement and booking of the hotel since I've never really done that myself before. I'm so excited to see Jeff Dunham but I'm even more excited to see all my friends that I've dearly missed so much being out here in the boondocks. If I never see the show it would still be worth the trip just to catch up with everyone. I know five days seems like a lot but I'm sure it's gonna fly by so fast once I'm down there. I guess some is always better then none, but it always leaves you wanting more too.
I got a call from Walmart the other day, they asked me in for my interview. I got the job, all I have to do is pass my drug screening, and if I remember correctly I quit heroine like a week ago so I should be OK, JK! I don't do any drugs and I rarely if ever drink!!!!!! But I should be getting a call about the orientation anytime now, they told me they do those on Tuesdays which would be great, since currently that is one of my days off. I think I will continue to work the overnights at Henderson, but I'm not going to be working the 3-11 Monday shift there anymore. Tina and Lori stopped me today to talk to be about my performance there. I guess the other two girls feel that I'm not helping out as much as they would like me to, and that I'm ignoring them or not waiting to communicate with them. I told Lori and Tina that it's not that I'm not helping but I'm not sure what there is to do there. I told them the other two girls do all the cooking and they do the showers. And I keep asking them if they want any help and stuff and they tell me no, they got it. So I walk around checking for laundry, and vacuuming the floors, and cleaning the bathrooms. There's not much to do since most of them go to bed early, about 8 or so. I told Lori and Tina that both the other girls smoke outside on the patio and I'm allergic to the smoke so I choose not to be outside with them while they are doing that, plus both of those two girls know I have a sun allergy so I'm not going to go outside during the heat of the day and sit with them. I didn't tell Lori or Tina out the sun allergy, I didn't feel that it was necessary to tell them, but thinking about it now I think I should. I'm just worried that they'll see it as an excuse not to do certain activities and it's not that I'm not wanting to help out, but if I do I need to know when so that I can put some sun lotion on. I don't like to put it on everyday, cause being outside for 20 minutes isn't the problem, but I do burn very very easily so I would need to know when for my safety sake. Plus the one girl, Elaine, recently got into a fight and had a black eye and came to work looking like that Monday and I kid you not about every 5 or 6 words out of her mouth are nothing but cuss words. I know that I cuss at times, but not to that extreme and I don't really like hearing a woman talk like. Plus the other two girls are Mexican and talk in Spanish, which I know none of. Kinda puts me out of the picture.
Today at work I also attended my very first safety committee. It was really nice! I like knowing that I'm getting more involved with the workplace and it's good to get my opinions out there and making an even greater difference. It was a little strange to be at the first one, since I don't' know what has happened in other previous meetings, it's like playing catch up but, not too much has happened so that was a good thing. They gave me a list of when the meetings with me for the rest of the year, and if I can't make it just to let them know. I don't see any reason why I can't though. The meeting are all on a Wednesday and always at 10 am and any changes get notified in advance. But the only thing I might have issues with is there are times when the committee does random 1:30 am drills for tornadoes, fire and shelter in place and I looked at the calendar and some of them are on Mondays which might be hard for me to get to. But I think I'll just end up getting off at my 11 pm and driving to the park or office and taking a quick nap until it's time to do it, so that I'm not wasting fuel or making a special trip for nothing, although I have drove all this way for an hour long class, so idk. It's part of my job and duty so I'll just need to put forth the effort and get it done. Today I also get to meet Robert. He's the new guy they hired to work at Tri-Plex. I spoke with Annette and she said that we should get along and that he seems like a nice guy. I'll be so glad too, we can get a little more work done at those apartments and get them into better looking shape. Would be really nice to see us making some head way, especially in like AA and LB's.
Recently I have two friends named Josh. Most of you know about the one named Joshua, but the other, Josh, you probably don't. But Josh M. texted me on Monday and told me that he was getting rid of his phone, he told me it's starting over with his life and other then family doesn't want any connections to the previous life. I told him that I was always going to be his friend and that no matter what I would always miss him. He's recently had to move back in with his parents and he lost his job and he failed out of school. I tried to tell him that I know EXACTLY where he's coming from and that everything was going to be alright. But he told me this was a good time for him to just start over and live like a hermit and just give into working on the farm. I told him that he has so much more potential then that and shouldn't give up, continue going to school and trying to get to the places he wants to be. I haven't been able to reach him by phone or email or anything so I guess if he doesn't want to know me anymore it's his loss, but I will always be there for him if he ever needs me. He's one of my best friends and maybe this rough patch will get paved over. I'll just have to wait and see.
Now my other friend, Joshua B. I'm still not really sure what happened but I'm just glad that he's doing so much better and that he's talking to people and working things out. He scared me Monday also but in the end I think he knows whats right and knows what needs to happen. I'm so happy to hear a difference voicemail greeting, even if it's just the standard computer lady resiting the phone number, but I'm sure he'll switch it back to a personalized one shortly. I couldn't picture him out of my life and I'm so happy to have him as a friend! But really he's more then friends, he's family! My brother from a another mother! lol! I would be greatly saddened if he were not in my life and cherish each talk and moment that we have together. He's one of the main reasons I'm going to Wichita in October. I hope he know just how truly amazing and special he is and knows just how lucky and how many people love and care for him! And if he don't I'll be the one to kick his butt for not knowing! lol jk!
Well onto some other friends. I've also recently spoke with my good friend Jason. He told me a lovely but freaky story about his co-workers daughter on Monday. I have to admit that after the two Josh's I was really glad to hear from him. He always makes me laugh and puts a smile on my face, which is just what I needed at that time. I won't repeat here what the story with the daughter was but trust me it's worth hearing! At least we know she has excellent computer skills. She should be very popular going into high school as a freshman if this gossip girl story gets around too! Jason told me also that he was still planning on coming to see me out here in the west. I don't know when yet and neither does he, but if he doesn't hurry his butt up I'm not going to be able to ask for those days off and I might actually beat him down there. He made a joke about how that would save him a ton of gas and money, and I told him it wouldn't cause he'd be taking me out to dinner! lol! I think I've told just about everyone one that I'm coming down, and when I'm coming down so it should be a great trip. Wait it WILL be a GREAT trip! I know it will be! I just don't know what I'm gonna wear or pack to wear. What can I say, I am a girl and I do tend to over pack a little but I never know what I'm gonna need. I usually plan for almost everything, and I plan for things that might happen. I'm not talking about packing a parka for a summer vacation but you never know. Could be a summer in Alaska! lol jk! I've also talked to Rion a lot lately! He's such a great guy and funny! I'm just glad I found another guy to talk sports to. You'd be surprised out of all of my guy pals Rion, and Don are about the only two that care about sports. Speaking of sports! OMG OLYMPIC TIME! Cute guys in tight sporty suits! Swimmers, divers, gymnastics, etc! HELL YEAH!! Michael Phelps!
My parents went down to visit my sister, Helen and her family who live in El Dorado. They went shopping in Wichita and had a good time. My mom went to a garage sale and bought me a "Parking Only for KU Jayhawks Fan" sign and hung it on the carport next to where I park. I really like it. She said it was only 50 cents and the plastic covering was still on it. I'd say it was the best bargain ever! But they are all doing well down there, my sister is huge! The baby is kicking her ass though. The doctor told her that she'll probably be about a week early. And I guess my nephew, Jacob, is having a bad case of the terrible threes. Everything is NO! But I kinda laugh because hearing stories of my sister as a kid sounds like a repeat of personalities! Everyone that knows me knows that I don't talk much with her and that we don't get along like we should, but she's 11 years older then me and we just have very different lives. I still love her with all my heart but sometimes she's a little too motherly. I got a wonderful mom, I wish I just had a sister. My mom did say that she seemed to really enjoy the baby blanket my mother made for her, which is good. Mom also said that they are giving away their dog Lucy, a Welsh Corgi. She said it's just too much pressure to have two, almost three kids, and take care of a dog too. Which is understandable. I told mom she should have just brought it back here to stay with us. All the hard work was done with the dog. Potty training and stuff. But mom still has her adopted half inside half outside cat, Tabby. I've never seen Lucy chase after a cat, but ya never know. I know Tabby doesn't like dogs either.
I'm excited to get my next check on the 19th. This is the big one! 56 hours of overtime! Yeah baby yeah! Very grrrr! I told mom that I'd like to get some things paid off with this and see how much I got left over. I know I'm almost done paying on most of the credit cards and I'm almost done paying off the hospital so. YEAH ME! Pretty should maybe I'll have some more in the bank and can watch that bundle get a little bigger. It would be nice to know that if I needed something like new shoes or whatever I could just go out and but them, which I do need new shoes for work. Plus mom has been looking around and in about 6 months I'll have my car and mom will have one of her vans paid off and then we can look into getting a her a new work van and me a different car. I'm thinking new birthday present for myself!! Wink Wink!! Dad's about to start going back into harvest for corn and milo so he'll be working a lot of overtime too. Should make sometimes better! Mom and dad have both told me that they are really proud of me and appreciate the effort that I'm putting out trying to help them and working so hard to get back on my feet. It's nice to hear them say that! Last night mom was happy that I was actually home for one night. I made spaghetti and meatballs, garlic rye bread and salad. Mom was glad not to have to cook when she got home and I had supper ready and on the table for them when they walked in the door. Then mom cut my hair, it's shoulder length. Almost all one length, I'm excited. It's still long enough to put into a pony tail too. I'll be glad when it's back down to my waste line. I guess about a year til it's there, but my hair grows fast so idk. Mom also helped me put a relaxer in it, it's still curly but a little more manageable. I went to bed early about 8 for some well deserved rest. I fell asleep watch my dvd of Jeff Dunham Spark of Insanity. I wake up to find it playing the opening them song on the root menu. Turned it off and went back to bed.


Here's My Songs:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-y8sy5r82iE Eli Young Band - When It Rains
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWYRfsjBNQk Jo Dee Messina - Bring On The Rain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6m5H5QgzBJo&feature=related Breaking Benjamin - Rain